Alright, I get the whole drinking deal and why peoplefind it fun. I don’t. I hate it. And in waltzes in my boyfriends drunk ass brother and friend making all this racket with my strict father just up the stairs. Finally get them to shut the fuck up and go and I’m super pissed. Boyfriend decides a “great” way to calm me down and take my kind mind off of this is to try to eat me out or some shit like that. And this time I just fuckigbtold him to stop! He gets mad at me saying “it was fine before blah blah blah” uh yeah totally that’s why I kept pushing you away. Yes for once I verbalized it! I am not ready for sex. At all. In any form. Yes we’ve been together for about ten months and I’ve known him for a few years but I’m just not fucking ready! And I just don’t know how to say this to his fucking face! I actually said no thistime, but I couldn’t even explain myself! I’m such a moron!